The lights just went out on there own last night in the middle of me journaling, which left me in complete darkness until Dave came by with a flashlight. It was so dark, I mean that sounds so simple, but the intensity of the darkness here is so dense. There are no people outside or cars riding by, no streetlights.
Its just darkness, immense darkness. It was hard for me to get to sleep at first. So I put my iPod on and layed down for a couple hours and then when I felt more comfortable, I pulled the headphones out of my ears and knocked out. I woke up with the needing of having to pee, realllllllly badly, but every time I opened my eyes and took in all the darkness, my bladder slowly began not to feel so full.
We have morning prayer at eight which gives me a couple of minutes - because I believe that it is about 7:45 AM. It's so weird no having an exact handle on time. I cant just pull out my phone for an update.
I cant wait to spend some more time with the kids today - I wish I spoke Creole - it's so hard for me to have conversations with some of them. But they are very patient with me and they try their hardest to help me understand.
I want to hold all of them, I wonder how long it's been since they have been held or if they have ever been held. It amazes me how pure their spirits are and how similar they are to American kids. They mostly just want your attention and they lied to me so much about their ages. The 3 yrs olds, tell me that their 5, the 4 yrs old tell me that their 6, even this kid who was about 7 tries to convince me that he was 12. I loved every second of it.
I wish my mom could meet them, she could give them so much love. I mean, I have a lot to give, but her love kind of just pours and then completely surrounds you until your all full up of love.
I'm determined to remember some names today at least 10-15 or so, I met at least 40 kids yesterday , and all their names sort of overwhelmed me.
Ohh -- I scraped myself against a nail yesterday and it stung while I was sleeping. I hope I don't get like gain green or something.
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